should i stay, or should i leave...

well, i've been in employment for almost 8 months now but to tell the truth, i wud prefer to stay at home. i feel so tired to manage between housework & office work. i'm like a machine who works non-stop as early as 4.30 am till 12 am. i guess being the house maid is much better, although earning about rm500 monthly with meals, clothes & cleaned room provided.

i'm tired of traveling 40 km per route, which take me almost 1 hr. not to mention to face the massive traffic jammed. and the most worst thing, get my salary deducted 1 hr daily for almost every day. at the end of the month, few hundreds in total had been taken away from my paycheck.

talked to dear hubby, he kinda give a green light but myself still not sure whether this is a right step to make. i've been thinking whether i'll be able to pay my dues at the end of the month, with the little allowance dear hubby gave. few friends was suggesting if i could do some beadsworks to generate some income, which i'm considering now.

It's Already 2010...

... ermm, how time flies. we're not in year 2010, on the 20th day to be exact and yet, i have neglected this blog for quite some time. no, i hv no intention to delete this blog as i like my blog's name - 'Phlox - A Journey'. A Journey of Phlox in her life, somewhere along the lines..

and i hope it's not too late to wish 'A Happy New Year' to my blog reader.. btw, as far as i can remember i only hv 2 readers who visited my blog once in a while..

I dunno why, but I juz feel sad...

m not too sure why m having tis problem. juz feel sad wif mixed feelings. cud it be today is munday, or 'somting' else. but definitely not bcoz of the PMS - i had it much earlier. try to think the root of my uneasiness, try to kill the thots. i guess all tis, bcoz of my curious & jealous. i juz cant agreed y dh want to bring in his ex-purchaser to his new coy. i knew he'll bring in 2 other engrg staff fr previous coy, which it thnk it's relevant. but y he want to bring in this lady in. d moment he said that lady is like a makcik makcik type, i didnt really believe. while having evening chat wif my neber, i found out that 'makcik' who was my neber's classmate, is not really a makcik type. yeahh, she wore tudung.. n not to mention here - wif some thick makeup. and my feeling feels more uneasy when i read this 'makcik' email to dh, she addressed dh as 'Dear' in the first line of the letter.

urghhh.. such a silly thot.., shoohh.. shoohh... i deserve a better day !!!!

Guess.. Which One Is Me...???

A bunch of us during our UIS class.. every body gotta wear our tudung, otherwise Ustaz Hayyun will ask us to pack our things and leave the classroom... hik hik..

So.. U guess, which one is me.. btw, this photo wuz taken 18 years ago... see how young we're..

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I'm still on my job hunting mission.. wish me luck..

errrkk.. who read my blog anyway yea..??? if u happened to read my blog, please leave a comment...

Need Job Desperately !

I got a breakfast interview this morning at 8.30 with recruitment agent. Wuz about to sms her to move the appointment to 8.45 but she already smsed me at 8.00 saying she’s already at the venue. Sighh.. as I still at home !!!

The traffic wuz not as usual, long que at 8 a.m. Ha ha.. I haven’t been in this situation for 2 mths already as I nowadays leave home at 8.30 hik hik.. By 8.15 have to sms her back to cancel the appointment as I foresee I only reach Amcorp Mall by 8.45 the earliest or 9.00.

Went to the PO again to renew my driving license after the computer goes offline right away when it come to my turn. This time, M very lucky as the counter girl remember me n push me to her colleague. Within 5 minutes, everything settled and I smile again after my driving license renewed for another year. And no summon so far, yeah yeah..

It’s already 9 am, but I decided to make a turn towards Worldwide Business Centre to have a quick check on what companies rented over there. Quite a few, but I guess at this hour not a right time as everybody seems busying near the lift. Should have come again so other time, at odd hours.

As I was driving to work, I feel that I feel emptied, frustrated and so on. I hate to go work, with current company which pay me less, but I have work more. I got the RM 500 allowance juz to tally back what I earned before, but I have to come back on Saturdays. I feel, it’s not right. I wanted to put in my resignation but comtemplate to do so as I need some figures to bank in to my bank monthly although the amount only be there on 7th or 8th of every month. It’s kinda of frustating when banks keep on calling, chasing for payment which I usually settled by 3rd.

How I need a job which pays well, somewhere near Shah Alam desperately !!!!

Business Trip or Holidaying ???

The flight is on Saturday, and will take few hours to reach destination. And normal working days over there only starts on Monday. So what do you all think of that Saturday & Sunday ? Business Trip or holidaying ???

Happy Birthday Nonie !!!

Today is 7 March, and today is Nonie's birthday. Yet I haven't make any call wishing her. I missed her last year birthday, and some how it stuck my mind early in the morning reminding me on her my birthday.

Nonie wuz my 1st best friend , whom I knew since my Primary 1. We're been in the same class until we're in Primary 4, before I left Convent to stay with my grandma. We're very close at that point of time, sitting next to each other in the class most of d time, taking our break together at the school canteen, learning our 1st chopstick session from Wy and lots more. I still remember until now, she signalling me from the other end when our English teacher asked to do a composition on 'My Best Friend'. She wants me to write about her & vice versa, and we did !

We do keep in touch after I left Convent for quite some time, and later we stopped. When I enrolled to college, I met Wy & Keda who remember me very well. From them, I get to know Nonie also taking the same course, but at other branch. We met for the 1st time after more than 7 yrs, during our convocation. But she wuz very arrogant until I dun ever feel to meet her again. Funny thing, after I settled down here.. I saw quite often at the bus stops, and some we board d same bus and yet none of us greet each other.

Again, it's a small world. I met her during my son's kindy sportdays.. we juz exchange smiled. And kindy principal wuz kinda enuf to give me her contact no after get her approval. We do call each other occasionally. I knew she had a tough time when her husband was suspected in murder case, which was well known n published in most Malaysian papers.

Dear friend, Happy Birthday.. May life getting better than ever.. hugs..

- phlox a journey, until she stops somwhere...