American Idol.. Taylor ??? Kate ????

As expected, Elliot is vote out this week. So we shall see Taylor & Kate make their way to the final. So who do U think will be the next American Idol ?? I wud vote for Taylor..

~ Phlox A Journey, until she stop somwhere...

M Real Odd Person :(

Ha.. ha …. that’s what I felt about myself. M the odd person, what do U think ?? I found out that recently I like to be alone (hey.. I’ve been in this room alone for past 10 years, yeah.. mind U), like to isolate myself from other officemates, except those ‘nyonyas’ in my dept. Eversince I work here, I have this attitude.. To me is, come to the office and do my daily tasks (errr.. (systt !!!) I’ll pick N choose who tasks I like to do keh keh..). Since my lunchmate resigned couple of months back, I no more go out for my lunch – I still did occasionally. I wud rather sit at my chair, glaring at the puter (not glare actually – either surfing or reading emails) or stitch a few Xs on my WIP cross stitch project. I still do keep in touch with few of my frenz (who did not working here) either via phone or ym or skype, juz to make sure that M not lost in this world hik hik..

As my mood slowly turn bad after I read that redesignation letter (not mine, other staff) I juz like to be alone. To spent my ½ hour or 40 mins driving back quietly, juz to clear up my mind. But hell.. all my plan has crashed out. An officemate skype me to ask whether I can give her a lift home.. errkk.. I hate this.. I hate this… !!!! I hate to give her a lift actually, but how M I to tell her that I don’t want to. I juz want to drive back alone, without her company. If she did not have transport back juz because her hubby has to work extra hours, that’s her own problem.. Not mine !! Why can’t she find her own solution, either stay back and wait for him, or juz drive his car back and pick him again afterwards. When I wuz not mobile, did not own a driving license & car, I do stay back alone in the office every time dear hubby got to work extra hours. I juz don’t like to interrupt other people schedule, so that I can get a ride home. I know ppl does not like other ppl to interrupt their own schedule.. as what I felt at the moment.

Hey… does that prove M the odd person.. ??? LOL.. driving back with company… urghhh !!! I have to be a pretender this evening…

~ Phlox A Journey, until she stop somwhere....

Feel Sad Again …..

I think my sad feeling will never end, probably until I find what I want. I started when I saw this redesignation letter one of our staff. I knew about this long before, lucky it’s not from my own department. I only realised her new salary now has reached 3K. OMG!!!! She’s only few hundreds behind me !! She did not have a Diploma, and now she’s following my salary closely. Imagine for 10 years here, there’s no promotion for me. The yearly increment that I got only for not more than RM 150, never get any merit increment only once.. which has created a real havoc in my department, as why M the only one who get it not the others..
Errmm.. what’s my next step ??? Hunting for job again ??? Well shall do some input on job hunting in my next write up.

~ Phlox A Journey, until she stop somwhere...

What I Want Actually … ???

Well.. me myself dunno what I want actually *grin* Funny huh … when me myself dunno want I want in life. Everyday seems a boring day for me, especially when M at work. It’s something that M forcing myself to drive to work, sit at my chair, staring at the puter from 8 till 5. The only thing that me feel happy is browsing the net, reading my stitching frens emails, envy their stitching progress. Or browsing for cross stitch freebies, juz to add to my collection. Or have some chat with some online frenz.. Well all those thing live me up, really make my day. But on the other side, I do feel guilty for not performing well in my job. I tend to pick N choose what I want to do. Some jobs that I like, I do it quite fast. But there are some that I hate to do & I’ve dragging it for quite some time. What’s wrong with me actually.. ??? Do I need a fresh air outside ? Do I need to change job ? Do I ready for the challenge outside ? Do out there really have some more promising that will make me happy.. ???

I think I know what I want.. I want money.. money.. without have to work for it. I want the money to come over to me, for me to spend for my kids, family, my needs & my hobby. I juz want to have my own precious time where I can juz spend by attending to my kids, my family, my stitching, my reading, my garden, my house.. and a long list of ‘my… I want’. Well.. I guess M too demanding.. kof.. kof..

The Next American Idol...

Who U guess would be the next American Idol after Chris wuz voted out this week ?? Taylor.. ??? Kate ... ??? Elliot ... ??? Errmm.. frankly speaking b4 this I think it cud be Chris, but M very dissappointed when he was voted out despite his good performance & progress this week. Earlier, I think Chriss & Kate will make their way to the final.. but now.. M guessing too. Well America, U have me your own choice by kicking Chris out from the contest. Why must you kick him out, when I think it shud be Kate.

Now.. who will make their way to the final..?? Taylor & Kate.. or my sweet Elliot & Kate.. ?? I knew Kate will be one of the finalist, as she's the only lady there.. and for that, for sure American guys will vote for her.. hehe...
Anyway, we shall wait and see...

~Phlox A Journey, until she stop somwhere...